Copyright 2012 Nouk Sanchez
I am in the midst of a deeper learning. It came as quite a shock. I don’t need the body in order to feel truly ‘joined’ with another. Just today an insight appeared as I sat still. I used to miss my loved ones terribly when we were physically apart. Now, I don’t have the experience of ‘missing’ anyone. Why? Because I am present with myself wholeheartedly. I am no longer betraying or abandoning myself through the many ego roles I used to play such as mother, partner, friend, etc.
We can only miss another if we unknowingly miss our Self. That uncomfortable gap that we feel when we are separated physically from our loved ones, exists only in our perception. For me, I look back and see countless instances in which I had left myself in order to fulfill the many roles and expectations of the world. The needs of others were far more important than my own. And while the desire to meet the needs of others over those of our own sounds so virtuous, it often is not. Especially when we look deeper at how the ego works. Under much of my need to be good and helpful was a desperate search for approval. I had hoped that by being good, the world would reflect a positive identity back to me; one that I could call ‘me.’
Very gently I learnt to recognize all the areas that I tried to conform to the ego’s versions of relationships and worldly expectations. Spirit took me into every detail so as I could see where I had unknowingly betrayed my Self in order to pursue happiness and security outside my Self, through the body, in relationships and in the world.
The roles (rules too!) we play in our special relationships, are set up by the ego to ensure total distraction from meeting our Self intimately; from dropping inward to develop trust in our Holy Self above all else. The sadness in all of this is that the Love and security that we seek through the body, in the world and through our relationship roles, will always be exposed to threat of loss until we dare to prioritize our primary relationship… with Spirit within.
So an important key to finding infinite Love and security within, is the desire to expose and examine with Spirit those areas where we still unknowingly betray ourselves. Where do we continue to sacrifice and struggle? Where are we dishonest with ourselves?
When we sacrifice or struggle, we unconsciously demand that others do as well. And when they don’t, we get resentful. While we carry resentment, we separate from others and our self. This is a form of deprivation that we choose to take the place of divine union and abundance within.
Here is a prayer that I have used to help unearth situations and roles in which I was unknowingly betraying myself:
Prayer to Release Self Betrayal
“I recognize that my own fear of change or loss has tempted me to lie to myself. I am ready to unearth and heal the areas in which I betray myself. I recognize that I have unconsciously projected my self-betrayal onto my body, others or the world. Spirit, please help me to become mindful of when I abandon myself to fear or deprivation; and help me to forgive myself. I ask you to reveal to me and help me release all the areas in which fear has caused me to deny your Love as my Holy Self. Amen.”
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You are so spot on. Thank you Nouk.
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Yes Nouk, the moment I started reading your blog, I knew its truth.
Never underestimate the power of denial. And it is our denial I do this, and I am doing it for the good and welfare of others or all.
Thank You for revealing ego’s use of altruism, in a most unsuspecting way, until looked at, with the Eyes of Holy Spirit. As Byron Katie says, I dont feel any need to counsel anyone, as everyone has equal wisdom. This is equivalent to we all have The Holy Spirit, God’s Teacher with us and for us at all times, until not needed anymore.
Likewise, when ACIM says, Every Encounter is a Holy Encounter, as I see my brother I see myself.. to see my brother as less than whole, to beLIEve my intervention will right what is “wrong”.. is to interfere…and as it says in True Empathy, Text Chapter 16, I need do nothing, except NOT to interfere.
So the ego’s maladaptive solutions to non-existant problems is to bury the Son of God in his “helpful” instincts …and forget to Claim the Grace of God by which we live, and all are released.
To develop Trust, is to experience that all that happens here is Perfect, I need do nothing, except not to interfere, unless I want to delay acceptance God’s Grace.. Acceptance of the Atonement for myself, Correcting my perception.. removing need to change anything or anyone.
As I write this, love to do a phone interview on Open Minds Radio, on a Sunday evening in, or another time convenient to your schedule, if you are open for it.
I will share further on this blog this morning on Open Minds Radio at 9-9:30am ET and can be heard at http://www.AcimGatherRadio.org
In Appreciation Always Nouk for your commitment to undoing the ego
Dov, thank you for such warm confirmation that the ‘Truth is true, and nothing else is true.’
In gratitude and Love,
Again, I can’t wait to read your new book. Keep the excerpts coming though!! My friend and I have met three days a week for the last two years in an intense desire to know the truth through ACIM. (Early retirement is always a good dream.)If we didn’t realize that what the Spirit is showing you and us is actually affecting and influencing EVERY mind, the similarities of the focus of the message we share would be scary. But we ARE allowed to be awed at revelation. And it is truly AWESOME.
The ONE MIND is awakening! As the blocks to Love fall away, we are glimpsing the Real World…
Thank you for sharing,
Thank you so much, Nouk and all – this is perfect (of course) – I’m grateful to have seen the link on facebook so I can see the blocks to Love that are now falling away…
Love, Love, Love,
Your posts are fantabulously, perfectly, wonderously timed! *LOL*
Self abandonment/betrayal has been at the forefront, off and on, lately. 🙂
It’s so damned exciting!!! WOOT!
Perfect Jeri! So it was “you” that prompted me to post this, LOL!
“Expectations are premeditated resentment.” Egos have expectations…many of them “perfectly normal”.