“On my way to the retreat, at the retreat, and on my way home from the retreat was filled with miracles. I will start with my airport and flying experience on the way there.

There has been an experience of anxiety and fear that has cropped up over the past couple of years, so flying has seemed to be a challenge, and the day of my flight to the retreat was tough, to say the least. No part of me seemed to want to get on the plane or be at the retreat, but I seemed just to keep moving forward, regardless. When I arrived at the airport, I parked my car in the garage and started walking to the security checkpoint. I stopped before getting on the line, as anxiety and fear seemed to be ramping up. I didn’t know how I would get on the plane and felt like I was in darkness, so I emailed a mighty companion and told her what was going on and how I didn’t know how I would be able to get on the plane. It was 5:30 am where she was so I didn’t really expect her to respond. After sending the email, I got on the line, but as I approached the TSA agent to give him my ID, the fear was just too much, so I walked past him and back to my car. I got back into my car and texted and spoke to another mighty companion, letting her know I wouldn’t be at the retreat. I seemed to be in complete resistance. There was no way I could move through the fear and get on the plane, and I didn’t want to. Then, as my flight was boarding and I was about to drive home, the mighty companion I emailed called me. She was firm, but loving with me, telling me I was needed there, and asked me to run to the gate. I told her okay, even though I felt complete resistance to what she was saying. I dragged myself out of the car and began walking. I called my partner for support as I was walking back towards to security checkpoint. I told her I wouldn’t even make the flight as they were already boarding and there was a line last time at the security checkpoint. To my surprise, there was no line at all. I walked right through, and my gate ended up being right next to the security checkpoint. There were still 10 minutes to spare before the door would be closed. I told my partner, “I don’t know how I am going to do this, but I guess I’m getting on the plane.” So, I proceeded to board the plane and took my seat. I asked Holy Spirit for help the whole time and told Him “I can’t do this, so this is on You.” That is how it felt, I was completely in fear and anxiety, so I really don’t know how I got on the plane. As I continued turning to Holy Spirt, the fear and anxiety completely subsided after about 10 minutes in the air. The flight was peaceful from then on.

At the retreat, I had a wonderful experience after talking to Daniel. I went up to talk to him during one of the breaks and told him that my partner and I were dealing with something difficult in our relationship. As I started going into ego stories, Daniel stopped me and said, “Stop doubting, that is not You. Run at it. Go call her right now and tell her you are 100% in.” His conviction stopped the “doubter” in its tracks. I walked outside immediately, called her, and told her I’m 100% in. She responded with the same. More emotions continued coming up after I got off the phone with her. Reflecting back, it wasn’t “me” who was committing 100% because mythical me doesn’t commit 100% to anything. I am very grateful to Daniel for this. Thank you.

Another wonderful experience was on my flight home. Even though I was feeling anxiety and the pull to go into fearful thoughts, which would have only increased the anxiety, I just kept reminding myself that it wasn’t me who was doing this and kept turning to Holy Spirit in my mind for help. That and a picture of my partner on my phone kept my mind from slipping into the fearful thoughts. The flight was peaceful once again after the first 5-10 minutes in the air. Also, there was a funny bonus on the flight, as I was sitting next to a service dog that was being trained to help with PTSD. I love dogs, so this was very comforting to me.

The takeaway for me from these testimonies is that when I turned within and asked for help, and mythical me got out of the way, help seemed to come and things seemed to smooth out. I am grateful for these miracles and all the other miracles I experienced and witnessed at the retreat.

Thank you to everyone for all the support and Love!

-Matt”

We are blessed that Matt got on that plane and arrived at the MRCC. If he had not come, we would not have been 77. Thank you, Matt, for trusting Holy Spirit to walk (and fly) through your fears with you. And for honoring yourself and your Take Me to Truth Family by showing up! Thank you for sharing your miracle story.