The recent Spiritual Guidance I have received is a true gift and I believe I was selected to share this information with everyone in the TMTT Family.

On Monday, February 24^th, at 8:15 am I felt a strong pain in the right side of my face.  Within the next 15 minutes, the pain intensified and then diminished.  The sensation was very strange, and I wanted to share the information with Durell, my wife of 52 years.  Upon standing, I noticed my equilibrium was compromised, as I could not keep my balance and kept falling to the right.  Slowly, I made my way to Durell and gave her the news and we quickly decided that our best option was an emergency room visit.

In 20 minutes, we arrived at the ER, and I was placed in a wheelchair, checked in, given a band for admission, and wheeled into a room where a nurse hooked me up for an EKG.  The EKG revealed it was not a heart-related issue.  Then I was moved into an observation room across the hall where a nurse implanted two IVs, a doctor announced “Code Stroke” over the loudspeaker, and I was instantly surrounded by six medical professionals to determine the best protocol for a potential stroke patient.  The quick shift in activity drove a very clear thought into my head; that an illusion of poor health had drawn me into fear, and I started a process that I want to share with you because I believe it brought me out of the illusion, and into the Presence of my Truth.

I knew that if I could stay in Peace and see this moment as perfection then I would be in communication with the Holy Spirit and receive guidance as the illusion presented itself.  The illusion was very powerful and had horrific images, feelings, emotions, and beliefs associated with stroke: the possibility of permanent injury, invalidity, and dependency on others.

As I was processing this information the medical team was at work, I was quickly moved to a rolling hospital bed and on my way to a C-SCAN, within a few minutes the scan was completed, and I went back to a private room with all the vital related technology now attached to areas that would provide ongoing analysis.  The Holy Spirit stayed in my thoughts and kept me surprisingly calm through this portion of the experience.  Within another hour, I went for an MRI and spent 45 minutes, in a tube, magnetic imaging whirling, but my fear was subsiding.  The Holy Spirit never left me, it reminded me to relax, presented thoughts that everything was going to be ok, I was continuously prompted to maintain steady breathing, and stay in Peace.  I began to realize sensations of love; I sensed each medical attendant was caring for me, helping me, using their training to take me through this process.  My job was to forgive the fear and not be absorbed into this dreadful illusion.

With the MRI completed, I was brought to my assigned room and waited with Durell to receive any news from all the imaging procedures.

Finally, the ER doctor on duty came in and said the MRI did not show a clot and that if I felt well enough, I could go home.  So, I was prepped for departure: tabs were removed from my chest, both IVs removed, and I was back in a wheelchair and within 15 minutes I was sitting in the car destined for home.  Within three hours of being home, my symptoms quickly elevated – now I had a swollen esophagus, slurred speech and I couldn’t stand.  Back to the ER I went.  It was now 7 pm and the entire process started again, this time with three additional procedures that would be administered the following day.  I was then assigned a room in the hospital and taken to the Neurology Floor of the hospital.

Durell stayed with me for an hour in the room to make sure I was okay and reassured me that we’d get through this together.  She left at 10 PM and within minutes of her departure the fear once more elevated, this time the fear was trying to consume my reality.  I asked the Holy Spirit to again help quiet my mind so I wouldn’t be taken into an illusion of darkness.  Immediately the fear disappeared, and I started a review of everything I’ve learned over the past eight years on my Spiritual Journey.  It was at this time, lying in a hospital room by myself, that I went into the healing process.  The description of what took place is described below, but the elevation of Presence cannot be described.

1. STILLNESS: I gathered myself out of the illusion of fear and went to my conscious frame of stillness I often utilize in Meditation. There, I quietly held my mind, waiting for all thoughts to clear, and in Presence began my communication with the Father, Mother, and Creator.
2. KNOWING: I embraced that nothing detrimental could happen because I was a child of God. That in God, all Presence, Power, and Knowledge existed, and I was Governed by God and therefore couldn’t possibly fall victim to any illusion of matter.
3. HARMONY: I embraced one outcome, healing, and that was anchored by the dictum that “all experiences are given to me for my own good” and I shouldn’t try to change them, only allow them to be experienced, knowing that they are in perfect harmony for my existing circumstances. They represent the opportunity for Love, Healing, and Salvation.  Utilize them as beautiful gifts and allow the Holy Spirit to provide the guidance required.
4. As my meditation advanced, I contemplated opening my Soul to receive CHRIST and suddenly felt a shift, a renewed energy within, and the thought that darkness could not exist in the LIGHT of TRUTH.
5. I then sensed an elation at a cellular level and knew the HEALING was complete. I was no longer in fear. The anxiety disappeared and I rested comfortably in bed and remembered opening my phone where I saved this prayer:

‘Thank You, Father. Here where I am, You are; all that You are, I am; all that the Father has is already mine by virtue of the nature of God, not by might, not by power, but by the very Spirit of God. God’s grace is upon me; God’s blessing is upon me.’

‘Just relax! I that is within you have come that you might have life, and that you might have it more abundantly. Take no thought for the things of “this world.” Do your work; fulfill your mission on earth, in your household, in your family, in your business, in your art, in your profession. I am the very bread of life, the very supply. I am here that you might have it more abundantly.’  Always remember, “The Kingdom of God is within you”!

Within moments I was sleeping, content, never feeling closer to my Truth and waiting to see what the next day of Harmony would reveal.

On Tuesday morning, I was visited by the Echo Plasma technician who would determine if my heart was spilling any additional blood clots into my system.  Her exam was inconclusive, so I was then scheduled for a TMT (in-cavity exam of my heart using a camera) that was going to take place the following morning.

When the technician was leaving, it came to mind that everyone I met in the past 24 hours were high in vibration and represented a truth of wanting me to heal.  From that point forward, I was amazed at what I was being shown with each new acquaintance – like Angels, all welcoming me, sincere in their capability to comfort me, and cheering me on for a restoration of health.

That Tuesday afternoon I met both the Occupational and Physical Therapist.  They ran through the strength, sensation, and coordination exams and told me it was time to stand.  I tried mightily, and I got up on my feet, steadied myself, and stood in a walker.  Unbelievably, with a safety belt wrapped around me, we walked out of the room, into the hallway, and back to the room.  I was exhausted but couldn’t believe what I just accomplished from having no ability to stand the previous night.  It was then that I was told they were checking my insurance so that I could be moved to intensive therapy at the end of the week.  I was hopeful my insurance would allow it so that I could further bring myself back to 100%.

On Wednesday, I was taken down to the Cardiology for the TMT procedure.  This test would perform a thorough exam of my heart, for possible holes, afflictions, valve imperfections, etc…  The operation was a breeze, and I was told that my heart was strong and very healthy.

That afternoon, the therapist returned to see if my condition had improved and performed more therapy.  I told them that early in the morning I had stood, under my own power, at the side of my bed. I also mentioned that I felt my equilibrium had improved overnight, and felt confident I could do more.

They decided to wheel over the walker; I stood on my own and slowly moved between the handles of the walker.  With myself in position and the balance belt secured, they were ready for my next adventure of physical therapy.  This time we made it out the door of the room, hung a left, and proceeded down the long corridor.  In no time, I walked 50 yards and went into their therapy gym.  I was asked to climb four stair steps, which I did easily, then they took me to the 20-foot ramp (which has handles on both sides) and I walked that on my own, no walker or handles necessary.  After that, I walked back to my room with the walker and sat in bed exhausted, but I knew the healing was expanding within me.

That evening, I laid in bed and recounted all the days that had passed, the great care I was receiving, all the emails that expressed thoughts and prayers for my healing.  I was overcome with how perfect the day was and knew I was moving closer and closer to accepting my Truth.  The past years of study, reading, discussing, facilitating, sharing, watching classes, meditating, and contemplating existence had taken me on this incredible journey to this point.  Then it hit me that this illusion of lost health was the contrast learning I needed to ACCEPT all I had learned, and this produced one thought after another of the entire TMTT teachings: I the Christ, fulfilling the Will of God, the eternal child, separation, metaphysics, consciousness, body, ego, forgiveness, Holy Spirit Guidance, Atonement, matter, healing, Song of Prayer, Text, Lessons, Teachers of God, Nouk Sanchez, Amber Spirithorse, Coreen Walson, Mary Baker Eddy, Joel Goldsmith, Herb Fitch, David Hoffmeister, Dr. Ken Wapnick, Keith Kavanaugh, the list goes on and on… I realized that it was all given for my own good.  The elation I felt that night was extremely moving.

Thursday, I woke early in the morning and walked, yes WALKED, unassisted to the restroom.  On the way back to bed I remembered thinking I went from standing to walking in 24 hours.  I felt almost totally back to health.

Durell was up by 8 am and I not only gave her the news but walked around the bed.  She couldn’t believe it, and I literally observed the change in her persona. What a gift this was for her, knowing that in 72 hours a significant healing was taking place.

By 11 am, I was waiting for the therapist team visit.  First the occupational therapist showed up and she could see I was excited about my improvement in equilibrium.  I was given several tasks to perform: first make the bed, (done), put my clothes on hangers in the closet, (done), pick up a tray on the floor, (done), sit on the edge of my bed, and stand up tall, sit back down, five consecutive times. I did them all in 13.5 seconds.  A huge smile came across her face and she immediately went out of the room.  She returned with the physical therapist, and I was asked to walk the same route as the previous day, this time without the walker.  They strapped on the safety belt, and we began the journey.  I walked all the way down into the physical therapy room, climbed a flight of stairs, walked through the 20-foot walk, did 10 air squats, and walked all the back to the room.

When I returned, they just looked at me and wondered what created such a massive improvement in three days.  I smiled and told them to enjoy the moment; it’s all meant for our Peace, Joy, and Happiness.

Within an hour the Neurology Doctor assigned to the floor stopped in the room and said, “I have some good news, your insurance has approved the intense therapy.  They have two beds opening up tomorrow and you’ve been accepted.”  I was so relieved that more help was being made available to help me. Then she said, “you are already beyond what they can provide, so I’ve got better news, you’re being released to go home and will be utilizing our outpatient therapy.”

I couldn’t believe what just happened, but I knew that this journey was just beginning.

As I finish writing the testimonial I’d like to share what this experience has shown me.

• Developing my relationship with God, and strengthening it daily was critical. I remembered all the statements Joel Goldsmith made in his books, don’t wait, start building that relationship with God.
• I firmly believe that each moment is for our own good, it’s our responsibility to accept, allow, and use the Holy Spirit’s guidance to navigate the Dream and see the Christ and Oneness in everyone we encounter.
• Holy Spirit is always available for guidance. To receive this guidance your mind must be in a state of PEACE and LOVE. Constant vigilance of your thoughts is necessary to maintain communication with Holy Spirit.
• They say the world’s only purpose is for Forgiveness, this is True.
• We will all encounter a “Dark Night of the Soul”: remain strong, deny fear, and go to Holy Spirit for direction.

I hope you find this testimonial helpful; it changed my life.  Wishing you all, Peace, Joy, and Happiness on your Journey back home.

Blessings,

Bob